The third is coming

 Yesterday, we found out the third is coming. As much as we have planned for it, it still hit me in contemplation. It is exciting and delightful like a Christmas gift in a wrap but also a feeling of responsibility and commitment to come. All the joys, beautiful time, memory of raising a infant to toddler i can experience once more. As all parents, there is also the hard work, the sleepless night, the difficult time that accompany the journey.

Looking at the two beautiful girls playing, trying to imaging how having a third one would be like. How the family would look like in a few years, what the kids will be doing or how that would interact, i can't just imagine. The little one that's babied by everyone won't the the youngest anymore. She will have to grow up to be a big sister. It is hard to imagine that. 

Going from a typical family for 4 to a family of 5 is a leap. Leaping from the norm, leaping from even responsibility to being outnumbered. Leaping from normal financial burning to even more commitment having a third. 

It is now just 8 months away from expected date. That just feel so fast with much preparation to do and all plan to be adjusted. How to run the family with 3 kids, juggling between work, daycare, activities and all. It won't be easier and external help is a must to keep sanity. It will take more patient more scarify for sure to be worthy of this new gift. There will be hard time, even harder than last kid. I just hope I can preserver and work it through. I have so many blessing in more than one ways to be where i am today.